First post on this year!
I know i should be glad, but to be honest... i don't.
A new year should begin with a new hope, a new life, a new beginning while me.. i'm losing mine. I don't want to sound so pessimistict but the urge to be bitter person is getting higher everyday.
Yesterday i had another interview (again), and they tested me with some accounting basic knowledge. I can't answer a single question, and i feel very stupid, i had to hold my tears until i get back home. Never ever in my life i feel so powerless.
Yes i come from engineering background study, yes anyone would understand why i can't pass the test. But that event really make me realize where am i stand now. I'm always in the middle of nowhere. I never get specialized. Manusia setengah-setengah, i'd say.
They say build your dream as high as possible, cause that"s what you do when you dreaming, right? Limitless and full of hope. Now i'm questioning myself : do i pick my dream that high? should i compromise? should i lower my standard?
They say, money doesn't define you. Yeah, right. Almost 2 months unemployee, i had lost my confidence and losing up my hope soon, but i still holding on tight to my sanity.
Tell me, how long do you fight for your dream (job) until you had to give up to reality?
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